Forget Your Name, Forget Your Fear

All credit for the gifs to iwdrm.tumblr.com

I've often thought of expressing myself through visual means, but my skills of an artist leave much to be desired. So I'll shamelessly show these cyclic animations which about sum it up.

I can't decide if New York just sucks in the rain or if in my transition to adulthood the rain has lost all it's power over me. I was always the kid running outside in thunderstorms. Soaked completely through and chilled to the bone, shouting challenges to the gods of fury, which seem to have gone largely unnoticed.

It seems ridiculous to say the rain has changed, but maybe it's just the kind of rain. Lacking in intensity, it seems incapable of soaking anything, just making it all damp. Rain without the fury is just, well wet. But it's getting harder to imagine myself running through a thunderstorm these days. Maybe I've romanticized it too much. Without someone to run to in the rain, I'm just as well off watching it from inside, behind the closed curtains.

I used to have a balcony and would sit out and watch the thunderstorms but the buildings here make it difficult to see the lightning, especially from my lowly vantage point. It's like smoke with no fire. It lacks that primal mesmerizing feature and instead of entertainment really only provides with you smelly clothing.

So when it rains here, I expect it to be like this

But the reality doesn't leave me feeling cleansed at all. It just leaves me feeling like it should be better. Just, angry that I"m wet. More like this, well minus the wet.

Again, all credit to iwdrm.tumblr.com for the amazing images. Oh and bonus points to you if you get the film references and even more if you get the reference in the first paragraph.

playlist here

Led Zeppelin - The Rain Song
Electric Light Orchestra - Standin' in the Rain
Cam Wilkinson - Song of Storms
Massive Attack - Pray for Rain
Echo & The Bunnymen - Ocean Rain
The Who - Love Reign O'er Me
Yoko Kanno - Rain